the power of touch...

heyy bloggy...!

sorry for being away so long....missed you!..wish you could respond to this:)

tumhe yaad karte karte jayegi rain sari..

tum le gaye ho apne sang neend bhi hamari.....

tumhe yaad karte karte...

mann hai ke ja basa hai anjaan ek nagar mein

kuch khojta hai pagal khoi hui dagar mein

itne bade mahal mein ghabraun main bechari

tum le gaye ho apne sang neend bhi hamari

tumhe yaad karte karte

birha ki is chita se tum hi mujhe nikalo

jo tum na aa sako to mujhe swapn mein bula lo

mujhe aise mat jalao meri preet hai tumhari

tum le gaye ho apne sang neend bhi hamari

tumhe yaad karte karte

jayegi rain sari...

one of my all time favourite numbers..sung by lata ..movie amrapali....a magic in itself...mersmerising enchanting totally engulfing....

coming back to what i was busy observing these days is the fact that human touch is one of the most powerful tools that god has blessed mankind with..

the moment we were born we felt the warm loving touch of our mothers' arms....where we slept peacefully ....in a world that was so safe ...the world in those arms...

the touch of cold winter breeze on ones face....the touch of rain drops on leaves...the touch of mud stained hands of a kid...the touch of the small fingers of a new born baby....these touches remind us of the miracle life is...

try consoling a crying baby without touching it !...impossible.....holds true for crying adults too:)....one tight hug and the pain vanishes into the warmth of the hug!...no matter how much one says in the form of words sometimes the true consolation only reflects in the form of a touch..

unsaid ...half said...hidden...unrealised ...all kinds of emotions gush out with one stolen kiss...that is the hidden power a single touch wields...a simple gesture like holding someone's hand gives out such a beautiful message ..i trust u so i give you my hand...i accept your trust so i hold your hand back...

no amount of words can match the feeling of being rested on the shoulder of someone you love with all your being...the sense of security that comes with this touch is hard to be attained by mere words...

human life is incomplete without these simple gestures full of love and life....

PS: i guess its time for me to go to bed and hug my fav pillow for the time being:):)

cutely ugly lovely monsters:)

andaaz apne dekhte hain aaine mein wo..

aur ye bhi dekhte hain koi dekhta na ho...

well..one of my favourite ghazals sung by my favourite ghazal maestro Ghulam ali ...mersmerises...intoxicates ..serenades...just takes you into a totally different world....people shower praises for pankaj udhas,,,,jagjit singh....but all i can say is that once you have tasted ghulam alis voice..rest all voices are like water after wine:)

anyways...what i wanted to write today was about something that everyone of us has gone through when we were kids....

i was returning from office today and again i encountered the naughty kids of my building...but today before they could call me aunty one of the kids' mom came running behind him and slapped him saying" why do you always forget to wear your slippers while going out to play?"...and i was dumbfounded ...i mean is that reason enough to slap a kid?..even motherly concern cannot justify hitting a kid for such silly reason...

scaring kids for everything..punishing them for all their mischiefs...has never been my idea of the childhood i shall be giving my kids..that is something i have learnt from my mom..she has never scolded or scared me for innocent mistakes like breaking a vase..spoiling my uniform...or not wearing slippers!...

i agree kids need to be disciplined and for that parents need to be strict but then parents also need to learn to differentiate between really grave situations and silly innocent childhood mistakes...we need to remember the kid will never be of this age again..let him make mischiefs..let him play pranks..let him wet the bed...let him be....

even if we adults wish to we can never do what these kids do!....so let them be in their own world...just guide them lovingly...caress them when they fall down and dirty their clothes..there is a whole life ahead to wear clean ironed clothes..for now let them dirty their clothes by jumping in puddles and playing with frogs:):)

PS: this doesnt mean i am never gonna thrash my kids because i know they are going to be monsters of the highest degree with genes from me:)

oouch! too hot:):)

hey bloggy..

when i saw the movie sahib biwi and gangster i was left with an open mouth when i saw mahie gill..along with sensuality, what her character was oozing out was a recklessness and unpredictability that just made her so irresistible...and i am still wondering what is it in a woman that makes a man go crazy for her..?..

well i leave it for the men to figure that out..:)..

i being a person who is constantly surrounded by a self created euphoria feel that unpredictability and a risk taking ability is the greatest attractive force towards any individual i get drawn to...

i feel after a level intelligence is boring..:)..i mean what kind of a life is it where every move you make is caculated and thought of..???...whats the fun in doing things when you are so well aware of every outcome..??..whats teh fun in falling in love when you know the other person is going to love you back...ha ha ...the challenge lies in falling for someone you know is never going to fall for you...(heart breaking stunt please perform at your own risk:))...

life is a dynamic roller coaster...ups downs ..downs ups...i dont advocate recklessness in dealing with anyones emotions but yes living with the acceptance that things can turn out to be stranger than you expect them to be....

PS: its true i sometimes get compliments that i resemble mahie gill:):) and i do take them seriously:)

www.whatever .com

hey bloggy

huh...i hate this..why should everything be so complicated..???...and why is my brain not programmed to get along with gadgets and softwares..????...why why why..??????????

i mean its simply ridiculous to be frustrated on a sunday evening over some stupid software that cannot be installed or uninstalled whatever...huh..

it happpens once in every fortnight that some or the other software on my lappy stops behaving gentlemanly and i end up begging it to start or just get lost somewhere away from my lappy...most of the times the solutions range from restarting the computer to deleting web histories...but today it has gone really over my head...as such i forgot my skype password and when i attempt to make a new id the computer hurls abuses like "skype cannot connect"..what the hell..whats the problem with skype i ask??..what do u want to make u get connected??..all the while everyone around me is getting connected to someone or the other and here is this useless skype not able to connect..huh..heights..

the same is the case with my office printer..i can never get a print in one single attempt..and getting two sided print correctly is a near impossible dream for me..some things just dont connect...no matter how lovingly i whisper in the printers ears.."please printie baby ! aaj sahi se print out dedo..please..!!"..but no..the answer will be either A3 size paper coming out for A4 or the printer will buzz off...with me gaping at it thinnking "where did i go wrong??"...

helplessly i am staring at my lappy for now wishing it knew sometimes i also get a killer instinct in my eyes!!

PS: www stands for way over my head dot com:):)

fearing fear:)

hi sweetie..

the other day i was having a wordly duel with a friend when i very proudly announced " i am scared of nothing!"...to which i got a reply "are not you scared of losing someone ?"...and i felt yes i am scared of losing my loved ones..my friends...and as i kept thinking on these lines , i realised there are hell lot of things that scare me!

the first and the foremost is that i am scared of my own impulsiveness...an ability to say things or commit to everything in a fraction of a second and then regret it later...i need to learn the value of pauses in speeces...pause for a second..reflect and then say what i really want to say..

i am also scared of my restless temperament and the fact that i just dont know how to sit back and relax!...even if my body is shouting for rest yet if a plan to go out for a movie comes around i happily forego the needs of my body ...and later with the lack of proper beauty sleep i am on the verge of depression !!

actually there were n number of things that used to scare me earlier when i was at home...talking to strangers or even enquiring about a bus at the enquiry counter!..may be because basically by nature i can be termed a shy introvert (the people who hear my incessant blabber are the few lucky ones in my life who have had the good fortune of seeing even my extrovert side:):))

but the other day i was just about to open the lock of my apartment when i saw a lizard on the main door...had i been at my own home i would have shouted for dad to help me but here i was alone..so without panicking i just shooed the dirty lizard away..and i was so damn proud of myself:)...we learn to deal with all our fears slowly as life lands us in deeper waters...

i also fear my extremely easily trusting nature...in a world where you cannot even trust your own shadow i end up trusting everyone around me easily...at times my trust has been badly bruised and battered but still this instinct is still the same....i feel no one can be bad despite meeting the crappiest people....

well i guess the only fear in life is fear itself.....every fear that is met bravely gradually goes away..

PS: my greatest fear of ageing has already started with a few grey hair arising :(:(..rightly said old age is womens' hell:):)

honey its about money!

heyy bloggy!

i am back..hope u didnt miss me much:)..well i did miss u :)..i have heaps of thoughts running around in my mind right now but theres a thought that is demanding attention more than all of them and i am finally relenting to it...

recently i heard about an engagement being broken..the case was the girl went out for dinner with her fiance and she offered to pay for the dinner..her fiance didnt object and she paid for it..when she came home she just told her parents "i am not getting married to someone who cannot afford me"...

well this is an extreme case of radical decision making but one thing that struck me was no matter what girls say or portray , at the end of the day we all yearn for chivalrous and gentlemanly guys...the kind who will pull the chair or open the door...so news flash "its IN to be a gentleman"!!!

actually its about the way nature has made both the genders- one is the protector while the other is the nurturer...and this basic trait has stayed in both the genders since time immemorial,,, so a girl always wishes for her guy to be the strong one who will hold her in all times...

coming back to the point ..now how do we decide in todays world as to who will pay the bill..well as long as the two individuals are friends or buddies without any romantic liasons they ought to go dutch...no guy has the duty or right to pay for a girl who is not his girlfriend or wife...the matter remains simple..go dutch..

but the lamest line that i feel a guy can say to his girl when they are in a relationship is " lets share the bill"..everyone is free to have opinions about this but to me this is a sure shot turn-off :):)....what evry girl looks for in a man is his ability to support her in all ways ..provide for her as she is his family...

i have friends (males to be specific) complaining about getting married and cribbing about expenses of marriage and household responsibility..now that is a fact that intrigues me no end ..why should a guy who is not financially stable even think of getting married...get settled in your life first and then bring the other girl to your home..whats the hurry??..no doubt the girl will understand your woes and happily cope up with them but is it fair on your part to make her go through all this in the name of marital adjustment?

one of my worst nightmares is that i get married to a miser..or a guy who looks at the price tag of everything before he gets me a gift:)..i mean get me a chocolate bar but please dont crib about its cost...:)according to me people who usually know the price of everything do not know the value of anything....

everyone tells me that as i havent seen financial difficulties i dont think about spending money..but the fact remains i am also from a family where no one overspends..no one is brand conscious but yes no one thinks about saving money as the prime motive of life..no one searches for the cheapest honeymoon destinations :):)

i guess i have blurted out my thoughts with the flag of "i am a pure feminist" in my hand...:)

PS: even if any one was going to ask me out for a date ever, after reading this post he s gonna think twice for sure and then give up the idea :):)

chhutti hai aayi:)

heyy bloggy!

vacation time finally!!...after days full of drudgery in the form of work pressures finally the day has come when i leave for my long awaited vacation!!

i just thought if i had not been slogging so hard in the last week would i have enjoyed this moment that has come now..?..a moment that i feel i have earned rather than it landing in my lap on its own...a moment when i am basking in the feeling of being free and happy:)

so is the case with life..the importance of brightness is only due to the fact that there is an equal and opposite darkness somewhere...happiness is important because there is sadness lurking around somewhere...white is appealing because there is black somewhere,,in all positive appeals only because negative is there somewhere....!!!!

enough i guesss!!..time to rush off...bags packed !..sneakers on...i run offff.....

Happpy diwali bloggy!!!:)

my comfort my love..!

heyy blogmaster!

did you know ek ladka aur ek ladki kabhi dost nahi reh sakte...???..ha ha !!..well u missed the classic block buster "maine pyar kiya" if you dont know this universal truth that applies solely to our conventional indian mindset...

many times i have wondered as to what might have led to the genesis of this statement..why do people presume that plain platonic friendship can never exist betwen two members of opposite gender..?

well a simple fact is that when you are friends with someone and you spend a considerable time with that person you start knowing the intricate details of that person..you become familiar with his/her fears..dreams...imaginations...habits..etc etc..you come to know the other person's annoying habits like chewing nails in anger...or the ability to make you laugh when you are seriously pissed off...you come to know or rather even predict the other person's statements ...now this overfamiliarity either puts you off the person or it draws you closer to him /her..draws you closer in the sense you accept their flaws without judging them...you are with them for what they are and not for what you want them to become....

love according to me is about being comfortable in the company of that person...if you can be your own natural idiotic bantering irritating self nothing better than that!

falling for someone without knowing them happens only in films...where you get tongue tied in front of the other person yet you fall in love with him/her...in real life love is never one sided.....what is one sided is always infatuation...if its love you will feel comfortable enough to voice what you feel...

that is where the comfort of a friendship comes along...mark me masking romantic inclination in the name of friendship never works...there has to be a clarity in both the relations only then can there be a gradual progression ...

a relationship solely based on romantic inclination may survive in the long run but a relationship where romance follows a long friendship is sure to last a life time:)

PS: should change the blog name to "Loveguru help service"!:)

intoxicated!!

heyyy bloggy!

so wats up..??..well excuse me if i sound bit weird because i am intoxicated..!!!...intoxicated with the magic called life..:)

its not as if i have taken birth today..that happened a long time ago...but i have started cherishing the fact that i am alive today now!

we take the fact that we are alive breathing and living for granted more than anything else in this world..its a miracle to wake up alive each morning..to be able to see the sun rise..to be able to smell the green grass wet with the night dew...to be able to hear the voice of your loved ones...to be able to say things you want to say...to be able to feel love aorund you..wrapping you in ways beyond your imagination....

i mean its a gift god gives us everyday....he says wake up sweetie !..and enjoy my creations and the life i have given you..!

most of the times we just brood over things..deciding whats right whats wrong..but one thing that i have learnt in life is that nothing that gives you inner happiness and peace can be wrong...

as said in the Levi's advertisement..go forth..i say we should all go forth and grab our share of happiness in this big big world!

life is so short...!its better to love it and live it..live like theres no tomorrow...live as you always wanted to..live with people you really like....do things your way..after all thats the only way you can end up not regretting later in life:)

so its time to realise the importance of being alive...importance of having a life..being happy for being alive and kicking!

so i say my friends!...get high with your beautiful life....get intoxicated just like i am...!!!:):)

PS: tu bhi tu hai main bhi main hu..duniya sari dekh ulat gayi...

ghatni hi thi ye bhi ghatna ghat te ghat te lo ye ghat gayi..

chorbazaari do naino ki..pehle thi aadat jo hat gayi..!!!:):)

being sexy!

hellow bloggy!

wish you could answer my question..."what do you mean by being sexy?"...because you cannot answer me let me figure this out for my own good self..!

plenty of adjectives float around us all teh time..cool ...cute... sweet... beautiful... fantastic and then the one adjective that attracts the ear buds teh most comes....sexy!..how does one define that...what actually is meant when we exclaim thts so sexy!

to me being sexy is a constant state ...it is a state that is exhibited when the right amount of confidence meets the right attitude...yes ..to me being confident is being sexy!

you meet a guy or a girl all decked in branded clothes from top to bottom..yet you get repulsed when you find a lack of confidence..after all what you wear doesnt make you sexy..you make what you wear sexy..

another quality that makes me feel a person is sexy is the art of having a good conversation with anyone...some people appeal only till you look at them from a distance...but the real sexiness lies in possessing the charm to carry on a lingering conversation that makes the other person want to talk to you endlessly..that to me is being sexy...

exuberance , liveliness and a spark in the eyes is also very sexy as it reflects ones basic attitude towards life...a person not comfortable in his own skin can seldom be sexy.....when you are comfortable with what you are and believe in what you do or think you automatically ooze out the sexiness or rather the oomph :):)

well..i guess for the time being i shall just say being your own self is being sexy!:)

PS: when someone says to me though you dont look sexy but you write sexy i dont take it as a compliment :(

the happiest day of my life..

hey bloggy!

some days are so vividly sketched in our minds that the moment we think about it , a smile lights up our faces...just as my face is lighted up right now!...one such day in my life was the day my brother was born...

i remember i always used to crib for a brother to play with as i was an only child till i was ten..i remember the day he was born i just went to meet my mom in the hospital..she was resting with a smile on her face ...i started to go towards her and she pointed to the bed next to her...bundled in white was the cutest baby i have come across...!!..i was not too small nor too old at that time....all i could say to my mom was" is he mine??..will he b there with us always?"..and everyone there just laughed..it was unbelievable to me actually to own a personal small cute brother (i mostly played with my friends' siblings)...the prospect of having him thrilled me!!

and then the years just flew by...we have never typically fought or hit each other as theres a considerable age difference between us ..but i have enjoyed bullying the poor baby a lot as i was the elder one..and he has borne all that in such a gentlemanly manner that i have to tell him..i love you bro!!

at times i feel he has suddenly grown up when he says" i have selected a suitable boy for u didu!"...but the moment i see the picture of JOHNCENA as the suitable guy i know he has miles to go still!!!

just praying that he has a wonderful and fulfilling life ahead...happy birthday cutie pie!!:)

tumko...paa hi liya

tumko....paa hi liya maine....yunn...

jaise main hun...ehsaas tera...paas main tere hun....

tumko...paaa hi liya...paa hi liya ..maine yun.....

tumko......

jahan mein..jahan mein bhi seene se laga le

main to hui ab tere hawale....

bandishein na rahi....koi baaki..

tumko...tumko...paaa hi liya..paa hi liya ..maine yun.....

jaise main hun ehsaas tera ..paas main tere hun...

tum ho.......

kabhi to....kahin pe bhi ab na dhoondna mujhe

main har jagah ab milungi tujhe...

tumko...paa hi liya ..paa hi liya maine yun.....

tu jane ya main janu ye..

sath main tere hun.....

tumko..paaa hi liya...paaa hi liya...maine yun...tu jane ya main janu ye

saath main tere hun...

rockstar

A R rahman

kavita krishnamurthy

the beauty secret!

hello bloggy!
the other day i was sporting a really hideous bright orange color nail paint on my toes...as expected i had to listen to an array of bad comments ranging from "where the hell is your sense of style??"...to "this girl is nuts!"...and the feminist in me sprung to action and i said i shall wear whatever color i feel like..thats the positive of being a girl!..i am privileged to wear such colors on my nails...something no guy can do!

anyways the point being i spotted some women workers going out of my office today..they had come to fill water from the water cooler...dressed in the traditional chaniya choli...with safety shoes ...and the beauty conscious me just sat haplessly gazing at their shining skin..no doubt they were all very dark skinned yet their skin had a glow that modern day corporate girls like me get only after shelling out a 1000 bucks for the gold facial..
i just sat gazing at them...they went in a group..laughing and teasing each other...smiles lighting up their faces...big bright genuine smiles...
and then it struck me..they are happy ..and contented with themselves..they live each day one at a time...working hard during the day..earning money ...buying dinner and being contented...that was the source of that glow!!
we live in an envelope of worries all teh time...worry about promotion..worry about looking drop dead gorgeous ..worry about losing weight ...worry about getting married..worry about n number of things!...it never stops...we just smile so less!
but some day life is going to stop..its better we stop before life stops!
stop to look at our own selves lovingly in the mirror...accepting all our own flaws...loving our selves without expectations of perfection...loving our work and all others around us!

life is simply running away...let us catch our breath before we run out of it!

PS: i care a damn about anyones comments on my nail color..but i did change it to bright pink!!:)

geet....

hey bloggy...

having being scolded for my irregularity in blogging i am back today....and what am i going to write today...i shall write the random thoughts coming in my mind today..a few lines...

khud ko khoya aur tujhko paya..

tujhko jo khoya to khud ko phir se paya..

khud ko paya to khud pe bhi aaj mujhe pyar aaya..

khud ko kho kar bhi kuch paya to kya khak wo paya..

dont know what i wrote!....more of a tongue twister i guess!..at times i feel a strange sense of peace around my self...a peace that makes me smile...that makes me happy...that soothes the turbulence in me...a peace that is the real me...

just listening to my favourite romantic numbers of all times..

chhukar mere mann ko kiya tune jo ishara...
chand mera dil...

deewana hua baadal saawan ki ghata chhayi.....

tum ho to gaata hai dil....

and all of a sudden the song that plays is...aaoge jab tum o saajna...angna phool khilenge...and i remember the movie jab we met...and cant stop smiling remembering geet in the movie...happily life smoothens out for geet in the end..what happens to someone who is real life geet ?....does she get the true love of her life...does she meet someone who deserves all the love and affection she has in her...

chanda ko taaku raaton mein...

hai zindagi teri haathon mein ..

palko pe jhilmil taare hain..

aana bhari barsaaton mein....

the song goes on....may be life also goes on ...and some day everything settles down on its own accord for every geet in the world....

dance like no ones watching!!!

hi bloggy!!

one two one two..one two one two!!!...and the steps go on and on ...!!!the steps of garba! ...the dance of the most colorful festival of gujarat!..despite being in gujarat all these years i never understood what drove people crazy enough to dance nine nights tirelessly but this year i am engulfed by this magic ..!!!

wow!!!...actually its not about just going to the garba ground and dancing the steps...its about being with friends and enjoying all the dancing..learning new steps teaching new steps and just letting go of yourself...letting go of all the inhibitions in your heart and just feeling the freedom surrounding you...

being a novice at this dance form i was actually fishing for some compliments the other day from a friend of mine ..i asked her "did u see me dance last night ?"..and she replied instantaneously.."of course..we were all seeing you !..actually we could not understand teh step you were doing but when we saw the guy ahead of you and the girl behind you we were able to decipher what you were trying to do..!"

now that was bad!..but who cares ..! i dance like no ones watching and is'nt that the real essence of dancing..!!

dancing is one of the purest form of meditation too ....just like music it embraces you and takes away all your worries tensions anxieties...i just felt when you dance all you think about is doing the step right ..no thoughts from the past no worries of the future disturb you...it gives you a relaxation that can be said to be divine....leaves you exhausted yet wanting more of it!

anyways i got to go and dress up as today is the last day of this wonderful navratri!!!...

PS: cant wait for the salsa classes to begin..!!!:):)

i really like you!

hellow bloggy!

some days life surprises you in ways you never ever expect it to..sometimes when you expect brickbats for an action of yours and you end up getting appreciation for it you just cannot stop smiling to your ownself!..something like that happened to me today...

being from a typical indian family where a girl crossing 25 and not getting married is a big question i am most of the time bombarded by my family and relatives with profiles of eligible bachelors ..well nothing special about that ..(there is always an option to reject !)..i mean so far i never got serious about this stuff and kept on dillydallying the whole process...still when it became a daily ritual i created a ruckus at home...clearly stated my wish to have some time finding my ownself before saying "i do"...finally they had to bend down to me...

now what does a normal girl get after doing such things....well to my surprise my mom called me today and said something she has never said to me in my whole life and that was "i really like you!"..and i was like "mom why??"...and she said" i like the fact that you can do things you want to do the way you want to...you are not scared of uncertainities in life...you have the courage to say no when you really want to say no without giving it a second thought...you are independent in the true sense...you have your preferences and you have the guts to stick to them no matter what i or your dad says...you have friends whom we may disapprove of but that does nt deter you from having them in your life..you are confident of your choices...be like this always!"

and i could only feel my eyes wet...all through my life i have may be annoyed my mom dad by my weird decisions ..by my choices ..but at the end of the day when they say that they really like me for what i am i cannot help but feel proud of my self..!!!

PS: i love you mom dad!

i am upset!

hi bloggy,

m upset!..and really really upset...how could they do that to me...i mean i accept i act a bit weird at times..but that doesnt mean they call me "aunty!"..i mean the kids in the nearby building ..

i was returning to my building from office and suddenly i saw three or four kids with a doggy...they held the chain of that doggy who started barking the moment he saw me...i being petrified of that creature looked at the kids for some assurance...and i got the assurance of my life when one of the kids shouted" aunty daro mat! ye kisi ko bite nahi karta!"

now how do i explain it to a five year old kid that i am not afraid of the dog bite but afraid of being called aunty!!!...ufffff...

i mean i came home and examined myself from up to down...where had i gone wrong...????....didnt realise when the transition from didi to aunty occurred!!!...ohhh god!

my only solace came when another friend too complained about the fact that kids called her aunty too...and i dont find her aunty at all..or wait may be i do!!...but no not me....not now at least!!!

its just the female "i never want to grow old syndrome " i guess!!

but for now i m really upset!!!pheeww!!...

PS: i have decided to call that kids mom and tell her to teach her kid not to abuse young ladies in public by calling them aunty!

Enabler of change....

hey sweetie!

well a cure to partial insomnia is to get up kick a friend out of bed and get out for a morning walk!!!...believe me when you come back from it you do feel sleepy!!! ha ha !

jokes apart..i have somehow come to believe that the best decisions that have happened in my life have not been taken by me!..yeahh god has given me somethings on his own..things i have wailed about n times but have now realised that they undoubtedly are the best for me..!

and the biggest of them being my profession...i was never an engineer by my choice ..but my field chose me and i ended up being one reluctantly...gradually time made me realise that it is not only the good money i am making in this field or the independence i have achieved due to this job that has made me stick to it..i have actually started liking my work!

it is one of the most imaginative jobs in the world...there are steps of calculation but at the end of the day process designing is how far you can go with what can go wrong ..and trust me its a total brain on high alert kind of job!...one mistake and you could blow the whole plant off!!...

some thing that clicked me happened last week...some one raised some query regarding a work i was involved in..and within no time i was able to give hima solution...i then went with him to my boss and asked him what was to be done..my boss gave the same solution and tht person told him "madam ne bhi yahi bola hai!"..and my boss gave me his rarest of rare smiles!...i just said to myself mentally"not bad!"...well thts just a very very small incident but to me it is the incentive to be here..

moreover i get to explore the creative side of mine and coat it with facts and figures in the regular column i write for our in house magazine...believe me time and patience can take you places ..you may not really know the importance of the job or the place you are in but now when i have started getting offers from other good places solely on the basis of my experience here i can say that the wait and patience have really paid off..!

an engineer as they say is the enabler of change ...and finally i am proud to be one...!!

PS: i still am going to be a full time writer some day..!!

Being religious!

heyy bloggy

this sunday when i went home i met a family friend of mine...amidst our conversation in car we had to stop due to some religious procession going on ....and then she asked me" what do u mean by being religious?"..i actually blinked for some two seconds and then replied " being religious means being good"... she then counter questioned me "how do you define being good?"..and i felt only one line coming to my mind...being religious is being good...being good to everyone around you....thats the only definition of religion my parents have taught me...for me visiting the temple daily ..chanting mantras daily is no sign of being religious....they are after all mere activities..so why not indulge in activities like doing one good deed in your life..making one sad person smile everyday...i guess god appreciates when we take care of his other creations too...

recently i have had a chance of knowing about people who have no scruples about drinking alcohol but yes to purify their souls they have no qualms fasting for fourteen days too..i mean such kind of religiousness is beyond my understanding...

i have never been told that my religion forbids drinking alcohol or eating non vegetarian foods...but yes my family follows them for physical as well as mental health...we are not bound to follow these rules but we choose to follow them...and that is the way i shall be bringing up my kids..

when my mother fasts for nine days in navratri as most Hindu women do, at the end of those days she breaks her fast with a silent prayer without any pomp or show to the world that she has endured hunger and thirst for nine days.. and that i think is fasting in the true sense..it is after all her choice of being religious...

these days i feel more close to god as i feel i am closer to my inner self...my own self where i have made some wrong choices some wrong decisions some hurt ful statements some hurtful actions...and i have cried at times to no one but only my ownself...and that crying has only strengthened my belief that no one but you are the master of your ownself and destiny...

being religious to me today is to be at peace first with your ownself...your own strengths and weaknesses....your own actions ..and even teh actions of others which affect you...the trick is to be able to forgive everyone for everything...let bygones be bygones...

and this positvity has helped me realise that the life i am living right now is the one i always wanted...being independent..on my own feet...being close to mom dad...and finally being the daughter they always wanted me to be,,,..finally understanding their anxiety to see me settled and after hibernating for 25 years i have finally started seeing the profiles they show me...and i was pleasantly surprised to see they have a better choice than me !!!!ha ha ...

we just waste the best time of our life looking out for love outside our family and friends ..and finally end up getting our hearts broken by giving it to the wrong person....the love we look for is in our own hands...with people close to us who love us without conditions in all ways and always...

i guess being in love with your self, your family and friends is also equivalent to being religious...!!!