It has been like a crazy hiatus from blogging and trust me blog i missed you more than you missed me!
yeah i did.because this blog is that sacred haven where i rant about everything that bothers me , everything that pleases me or anythign that can attract my attention for more than 30 microseconds (yeah i have the attention span of a goldfish:P)
a lot happened between the day i last blabbered about being irritated in office and today .. i am jobless as of now.. living far away in Houston ...new place new environment..btw environmental engineering is the career turn i took engineering is the career turn i took
like most things that go wrong after we plan them in life this decision too happened on its own accord..had anyone told em this in my engineering days that instead of an MBA in HR i would be going for studying core technical stuff that too in US i would have laughed my guts out:)
but then life is what happens when we are busy making other plans:)
i had my own plans ..not big but plans they were..i was supposed to be married with a kid by now ..yeah i always plan on having one kid of my own biologically and adopting a second one ...but then life had other plans....which were the ones that actually materiaised
a few months ago i was in jamnagar ..working on things that did not challenge or motivate me enough to get my adrenaline pumping..may be in a span of five years in teh same job you develop a lackadaisical attitude that stops you from getting your ass off the chair and do somethign challenging..you start becoming cosy in that comfort zone ...i was in such a comfy phase...no travellign in traffic..no boarding crowded buses...no dealing with strangers ..no worry about getting a job..no need to cook or clean or do any housework!
and bam! US happened..here i am struggling with grades...getting the research mode developed..workign on new technologies on subjects unheard of..competing with the best brains in this field...living on limited funds..managing cooking ..cleaning the apartment ..doing laundry..ironing clothes all on my own ..and m i complaining?..yes i do when things become too many and too much to handle ..but most of the times i am glad life made em take this decision..
because it helped me break out of my own reserved shell of not adapting to new things..i became aware of how little i really know about this world..and how much is there to explore...i love travelling in buses here with a mix of people from so many different backgrounds!
i love the fact that i have learnt to smile at strangers and now i don't shy away from saying "how u doin":P:P
i love that in this independence i have discovered my own weaknesses and limitations..i want to grow old not just become old with the attitude and stupidity of a twenty year old..i want to age maturely..i want to experience everything and accumulate wisdom instead of just age!
i love the fact that i have stopped judging people from their appearances ..because they are so deceptive...i am still learning to understand that not everyone who talks sweetly to you means well..and also that not everyone who tells you your shortcomings is your enemy..
yes life i am growing up! at least that's what it feels like..
shall continue writing amidst the assignments as it cleanses my brain space:):)
PS: i love wearing the shortest possible clothes and not being stared back the most:P
